yesterday, the B people plus karen lagat and miguel lacson, and I went to SM and watched Snakes On A Plane. I have seen the trailer of this movie before and my initial reaction.. yuck baduy, sankes on a plane? title palang eh corny na.. pero sorry na! I was the one shouting and screeming like hell in almost all of the scenes in the movie! it was so bizarre, waaa kasi naman yung mga snakes!! tas meron dun parang anaconda, tas inipit nya ung mayabang na lolo then ate him head first, uhhh!! effing good! :)) just think.. your airplane is about to crash, one of the pilots is dead, and one of them is unconscious, your plane is full of deadly snakes and not to mention the snakes have been drugged (haha), and you're seating next to a corpse! WAAA. scurry :S
anyway, last thursday we had our VE and there was this statement that teacher Jun told us, it was something like your brain and mind does all the work not your heart. and the it hit me...
all my life I lived by the saying.. follow your heart. but then again i realized that my brain is still in control of everything. not my heart. all it will do is pump blood for us to stay alive. but decisions are decisions made by the brain. you know how all those cheesy crappy filipino chicflick movies are... anong mas pipiliin mo ang tama, o ang sinisigaw ng puso mo? (nyaha) that's it! that's just it! YOU DON'T FOLLOW YOUR HEART, you follow your mind inaccordance to what you think is best for you. see? THINK. don't follow the beating of your heart, don't just feel but seek. internalize and think whether you're making the right decision. like the question I encountered in friendster.. "will you let go of someone you love?" --- well it's a case to case basis, of course you wont just let go of someone you love! cause that would be a stupid thing to do! but then again if you try to go deeper and seek its full thought, you will realize that sometimes letting go is painful way of saying I love you. it shows maturity and accpetance of rejection or failure. and then you'll realize that you gained more than what you thought was a big thing to lose.
it's always best to make the right decision rather than what you think is good, 'cause sometimes the things that you consider as good are bad for others. but then again whatever your decision is, be it for your good or everybody else's betterment....
it's up to you to make it happen. :)
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woot! long time, long time!... anywho.
accepted already, i failed MUSIC :( hahaha. anyway Kurt bought me a black pair of havaianas. ahaha. it was really something else! this is my first time to encounter someone giving me a pair of flipflops :)), nevertheless it was really sweet, thanks Kurt. :)
teacher minerva confronted me AGAIN if Edward and I were a couple! OK PEOPLE FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME!!! DI KO BOYFRIEND SI EDWARD!! tatlo kasi kaming magbebest friends--me, Emery and Edward. and to tell you the truth... edward is.... gay :)) JOKE! basta we're not a couple, we go out and all but that's just because we really enjoy each other's company.
my parents want to meet Kurt. : woohoo? but seriously, as much as I am totally scared of that, I REALLY DO WANT THEM TO MEET HIM. No, hindi pa kami ni Kurt but everyone knows that we'll be someday. :) just not right now, and maybe this is a good idea after all... cause then i wouldn't have to hide anything from my parents anymore. honestly, this day really sucked, but I'm so godamn happy :) ...
I know, for them to meet Kurt... isn't that a little too far? it's not as if we're getting married or anything, but I'm telling you having heard him say he'll muster every bit of self-esteem he has and do it, was really something! :) and then Kit told me that Kurt told her that if that "meeting" happens, his father will know too.. so he might as well introduce me to parents narin? or something like that basta the best part was when Kit asked Kurt...
well... is she worth it?... (introducing me to his parents thingy..)
so much.
waw. since when did smiling become my main activity? :") it's so impossible to feel this happy despite all my problems. I don't even know the main reason why I ended up with you. and for a person like me, who's so self-centered and egoistic! (nyahaha.) how come you're the main character in my life?!?! this is so weird but I'm loving this insanity. No, you're not a wish upon star who came true, but a blessing in disguise who helped me find my way back to reality. and now that you're here, time is not wasted anymore...
finally reality is better than my dreams. :)
"what do you see in the future?..."
I see you. (:
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kakatapos lang ng exams, and so here are my grades... psh.
MATH- 71/75 or 97%
SCIENCE- 86/100 or 94%
ENGLISH- 110/115 or 98%
FILIPINO- 93/100 or 97%
HISTORY- 74/ 80 or 96%
THE- 97%
PE and HEALTH- 92% (pshhh)
MUSIC? wag na po. please lang.
COMPUTER- 100% hands on, written: not yet sure. :)
keys.. bye :)
*books before boys!* wenk**wenk*
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OK, since i wasn't able to join my long lost friends last night at the penshoppe denimlab rockfest (grrr!) I decided to go to Chad's despidida instead. Well it's alright narin kasi I'm not gonna see Chad anymore and BODEK :(( haiiz. So anyway, it was really a fun party! Gboy was there :">. then we drank wine, i was soooo thirsty i drank a full glass of it =)) tinamad kasi akong kumuha ng coke. well at first i was ok. Then Marc gave me his san mig light, i had a few sip, then my friends were drinking narin so i drank a few more. WHOO. Lo and behold! next thing I knew I was practically falling off my chair.... no it wasn't because i was drunk! I was soo sleepy! but yeah.. i nearly got drunk, but i'm not the kind of person who wastes her time drinking and getting all fucked up. so anyway Tam was with us most of the time, so ken, jed, james and gboy were there too. ETO NA... James was soo inebriated already from drinking.. Idk! 3-5 cans of beer?! psshh, in fact I'm not sure if he knows what he's talking about that time. he kept on asking me.. "oh peng, san na si kurt?! bat di mo kasama?! kayo na ba?" ARGH! nakakapikon! =)) and then it was time to go home already. I was supposed to be fetched at convergys, but Edward decided that he'll bring me home instead, w/c i find SOOOO SWEET! imagine, from F1 to katipunan, then he'll go back again to tierra pura. whew! grabe thanks talaga Edward! and kaya mo yan, andito lang ako, syempre nanay mo ko :) AJA! =)). then. ayun. hang over? di naman. >:) hahahaha.
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funny how a single hot fudge sundae from mcdonalds made my day..... ü
well this day was really something! although everybody felt like it was just one of those ordinary days where you wake up, eat, breathe then go to sleep.. oh take a bath too and brush your teeeth... blahblahblah.
BUT TRUTH TO BE TOLD!.... this is the greatest day in history :) my good, great! grades finally matched with my great day.
what happened? well... thanks to Ronald Mcdonald. ahaha. it was not at all the "romantic- cheesy- love sick" dates you see on television. it was rather a weird yet inspiring date. and then... my favorite part... there was a couple behind us, the girl's from SHS and the guy's from Diliman prep. OMG! they were so gross, that i nearly puked all over the floor >:) joke! AHH BASTA! feel ko mga 13 yrs old lang ung mga un. nakakahiya kayo! well atleast you guys served as our entertainment! ahahaha. then just when i was about to get bored, there came a man who sat beside us.. at first i didn't notice him pero pagtingin ko talaga-- nangibabaw yung mahiwaga niyang mustache =)) funny talaga. OH AND IT RAINED :">
haii.. cge nightie night :)
happiness and pixie dusts for everyone! :))
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MAPAGHANAP ANG NANGUNGULILANG BALIW NA DAIG PA ANG NAKAGAPOS NA FLORANTE SA PUNONG CIPRES.at nagpaka balagtas nanaman ako. ha ha ha.
kung inyong papansinin ang mahiwagang punong iyan, na nakalapat sa inyong mga iskreen ay hindi sa amin =)). wala lang, nais ko lamang ibahagi ang makabuluhang kwento kong iyon. matagal na panahon narin akong di nakakapag post sa aking blag ah? huwell, huling araw na ng exams bukas SALAMAT NAMAN NOH!... pero eto na....
san ka nakarinig ng taong bumagsak sa MUSIC? ampotangewan naman niyan eh! hindi ko matanggap ang karumaldumal na pangyayaring iyan! ang pinakamababa kong score sa music ay 99/100 at hindi ako nagbibiro diyan! sabihin mo nang ang OA ko ngunit kung ikaw ang nasa puwesto ko mangungulila ka talaga! haiii, kelan pa naging masaklap ang musika? :((
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discombobulated? yes i really am. if there's a word far more confusing than that, then that would be my reigning feeling. ugh! it's worst than pms. it's stupid but at the same time it'll get you thinking of obscure things just to get that simple answer from that simple question that you've been asking yourself for like the 700th time. is it a deal or no deal?! nyahaha, but seriously... i'm having this BIG BIG BIG dilemma, and i only got two choices.. YES OR NO. gush, reallyyyyyyyy tough question. haiiz. bammer. cyah later!
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this day tormented me like hell. stop me before i kill myself. >:
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haylav this song. :) para sayo yan eh. kaso medyo malabo ang mga salita nito. siguro ganun nga ang nararamdaman ko. ika nga ng kanta- "tomorrow is a different day. tomorrow it may change". haii. pagpasensyahan mo nalang ako. malabo akong tao, maraming bumabagabag saking isipan. marami silang sinasabi, maraming gustong ipakita ngunit isa lang naman ang ipinapahiwatig... mahal nga talaga kita.
haii nagpaka francisco balagtas nanaman ako. pero eto lang yun.
my heart and mind may never utter all the things they want to say, but one thing's for sure. you're all that my heart is yearning for, and you're all that my mind is thinking of. i always say that i'm always filled with uncertain emotions. i start to formulate a million sentences with just one thought of you. but again my conscience begins to fail me. and i'm left with my so called life. haii, i don't even know what the hell i'm talking about right now. let's just base my feelings with this line.. "you drive me crazy @_@"
look i really want you to stay. all my life i've been waiting for this day to come. i was wrong when i said you were the wrong person for me. i'm just not ready, not today. i don't know when, but please do stay with me, wait for me.. cause i want to spend the rest of my days with you.
sorry, i know i've said some depressing words awhile ago like 5 mins. ago. sorry, i know i shouldn't be like this. but i was really hurt, and i guess i still can't accept my defeat upto now. i'm really being selfish here, but atleast you know how i feel and how i still feel. i have moved on already i'm not kidding, my mind's just not fully over the fact of losing someone i never even had, and all the while i thought everything's gonna be just fine. actually i never expected someone like you to enter my life. back then i used to think that i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with him. well i guess i was wrong. and now just a few sentences ago i said that i want to spend the rest of my days with you. will i fall on the wrong path again? i really don't know and that's what i'm afraid of.
I'M REALLY SORRY. sorry that i still can't trust you. sorry...
those three words are said too much, but not enough. :(
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tila ang bagal ng pag-ikot ng mundo,
o sadyang napag-iwanan lang ako nito?
tila ang dilim ng aking cuida,
o sadyang malabo na ang aking mata?
tila nawawalan na ng kulay,
o sadyang wala nang patutunguhan itong aking lakbay?
tila nawawalan na ng pag-asa,
o sadyang di na talaga pinagbigyan ng tadhana?
kelan ba matatapos?
kelan magwawakas?
kelan maghihilom,
mga sugat na bakas.
bakas ng pagluha
bakas ng pagka-ulila
bakas ng inggit
bakas ng pasakit.
mahirap bumangon at humarap sa katotohanan
mahirap panoorin ang iyong paglisan
mahirap magpanggap na mang-mang sa nagdaan
mahirap isadiwa na ako ang may kagagawan.
tila ang bagal ng pag-ikot ng mundo,
sadyang napag iwanan na nga ako.
sa iyong paglisan bitbit ko ang mga liham na
nilihim sa panghabang-panahon.
sa kasalukya'y akin paring itatago,
ngunit darating din araw na ito'y kailangan ko nang
itapon.
sa iyong paglisan, maunawaan sana ang naging desisyon
at sana mapatawad ang hiling na tinutugon.
paalam.
~i know tomorrow this will change once again, but one thing's stabled I love you.~
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and we're back to normal. :">
"nagbago nako"... aww, so i really changed him huh? haii, I'M LOVING IT. :)
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yesterday (july 22) was hella fun! i went with the 2B people plus karen lagat =)). sobra! it was soooo fun :) AGAIN GUYS!! thanks edward (yes yes people BATI NA KAMI haha)! grabe di ko inakala! whoo! grabe! i lab u, i know you lab me too =)). anyway i was transferred to section A, haii, well maybe it's for the better, atleast there's emery! :)
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3PM July 23, 2006
everything ended with just one snap of a finger. i know i've been too harsh, but i hope i made the right decision. it's better if we'll stay mad at each other, in that way it'll be easier for us to let go and move on. God knows how much i really loved you, but you must understand that there are really some things that aren't meant to be. Love really does come in the right time but on the wrong person, or vice versa. but if it makes you feel any better, of course i still love you, and i really cried. I broke my promise that boys are not worth crying for, but i think this time i cried on behalf of losing the one i love, that i might never get back. I'm really sorry, but please understand my part, it was hard choosing what's right over what my heart was yearning for. It's gonna be hard on tuesday and on the following days. It's gonna be hard ignoring you, it's gonna be hard trying not to look at you, it's gonna be hard pretending, it's gonna be really hard.
PLEASE promise me that this wouldn't be a distarction to your studies, please don't do anything that can harm your health, please don't think about this too much, please still wear and don't forget your jacket, and don't argue with motorcycle and jeepney drivers anymore.
I guess there's nothing more to say. I'm really sorry it had to be this way, sorry that i still waited for the worst to come. Sorry. I know we never went exclusively or officially, but I really got hurt, it's like this is reality for the very first time, i really felt love. Yes, I've been hurt in the past but that was with anger, that i said goodbye. But this time.. when I said those two soul-crushing words, i know it was out of love and for the betterment of everybody that I said goodbye. I know it's going to be hard to be friends again, but i really hope we do.
I really hope I'm making the right decision here. well my last words..
I love you too Kurt. I really do.
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How can i lie to him like this? he asked me if i have a problem with him. i said no there's none, i really intended to say no but at the same time my conscience was shouting like hell! What's wrong with me? I'm not feeling myself lately or is it because.... errrm.. NO! no! don't say that, i'll resolve this problem without breaking anyone's heart. I'm just so confused. He was right it's like we're worlds apart right now, i just didn't want to tell him the truth for fear that I might lose him. And now I'm losing myself instead. I just CAN'T tell him what's wrong, I'm scared of hurting him again.. god you don't want to see him down, it'll really crush your soul. I love him, yes, I can finally say that I really love him. And it's been quite sometime now, BUT WHY CAN'T I STILL FEEL ANYTHING. anything by which is like the spark-shit-thingy. And I'm so confused, it's like God doesn't want us to be. Last Sunday we went to Mass, and I said to myself "Lord, pakitaan mo ko ng guy na naka pink, and that would be a sign". Then I saw this old man wearing a pink polo, initial reaction: HAHA. but then again I said to myself "tama na, no more signs". When the Mass came to an end, I saw CHURCH GUY (Mark) wearing a pink t-shirt, not to mention his pink flipflops. --this guy that I've been crushing on since like prepatory! And for once after 8 freakin years, he said hi to me. I just couldn't believe what was happening. AND THEN IT HIT ME, maybe he's still not yet my "the one". Fate gave me a lot of signs and it's just so ironic that there's none for you- know- who. But then again, who has been there for me always? (the one i thought who left already, but just stood infront of me all along ü loved that day). WHY AM I MAKING MY LIFE LIKE THOSE IN THE MOVIES? OR BETTER YET, FAIRY TALES??
HE IS MY REALITY. WOULD I WANT FATE AND DESTINY INSTEAD?
haii :(
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argh. ano ba 'toh! i hate pms. :)) hinde, hindi un. i'm feeling all flustered about this feeling that i can't get off my chest! haii.
I LOVE YOU. I HATE YOU. EITHER WAY I'M STILL (SOOOO) INLOVE WITH YOU.
~ciao! toodles~ <3
gusto ko ng hot fudge!!!!!!!!! :
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yey! walang pasok ngayon, and maybe tomorrow. good thing or bad? haha. haii, long time no post. so what happened? well first of all..
>> di parin kami bati ni Ed. ano ba 'to!! pero i feel like he wants to talk to me already, his side comments are just so obvious! haii.. kasi naman ang taas ng pride ko!! kasalanan ko yun diba?? ARGH!! haay leche.
>> teacher May visited our school, i sooo missed her. and she has a boyfriend already she showed us their picture (soo cute). the guy kinda looks like Mike. haha.
>> speaking of Mike... sino kaya yung crush niya?? noh Emery and Rachelle? hmmm... hahaha! naniwala naman kayo kay Mark D.! susmaryosep! (haha, tama ba ung spelling? haha). anywho.. ayun, yun lang for Mike. haha. nga pala! nice testimonial Mike :))
>> yesterday, Em and I had a short conversation about Paulo. I can't believe it's been 3 years now. and I suddenly felt all melancholy about it. I just don't want to think about him anymore and all the things we went through. but i still can't erase the fact that this guy used to love me, then one day he was gone and just showed up to me after 2 years. I just don't understand what's wrong with me? I'M HAPPY NOW OK? I'M SOOO HAPPY. so stop bugging me with all the memories, I don't need them anymore. and I don't need him. stop thinking about him!! sheesh!! don't make me think twice anymore, I have found the right one already. don't ruin my feelings towards this guy who's just god damn perfect for me! leave me alone!
>> di parin kami bati ni Ed. ano ba 'to!! pero i feel like he wants to talk to me already, his side comments are just so obvious! haii.. kasi naman ang taas ng pride ko!! kasalanan ko yun diba?? ARGH!! haay leche.
>> teacher May visited our school, i sooo missed her. and she has a boyfriend already she showed us their picture (soo cute). the guy kinda looks like Mike. haha.
>> speaking of Mike... sino kaya yung crush niya?? noh Emery and Rachelle? hmmm... hahaha! naniwala naman kayo kay Mark D.! susmaryosep! (haha, tama ba ung spelling? haha). anywho.. ayun, yun lang for Mike. haha. nga pala! nice testimonial Mike :))
>> yesterday, Em and I had a short conversation about Paulo. I can't believe it's been 3 years now. and I suddenly felt all melancholy about it. I just don't want to think about him anymore and all the things we went through. but i still can't erase the fact that this guy used to love me, then one day he was gone and just showed up to me after 2 years. I just don't understand what's wrong with me? I'M HAPPY NOW OK? I'M SOOO HAPPY. so stop bugging me with all the memories, I don't need them anymore. and I don't need him. stop thinking about him!! sheesh!! don't make me think twice anymore, I have found the right one already. don't ruin my feelings towards this guy who's just god damn perfect for me! leave me alone!
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ARGH!! ano ba toh!! magkaaway nanaman kami ni edu!! waaaa. ayoko na, para kaming aso't pusang di na magkaayos. oh sige inaamin ko may mali rin akong nagawa, pero hello?! nakakaasar na kasi minsan eh!!! (UMIINIT ULO KO!!! inhale! haaiii) isang linggo na kaming di nagpapansinan, maliban nalang kahapon...
~ PESTE!! nasa brewing point ako kasi may topak yung DSL namin, kasama ko yung brother ko. edi una okay pa, biglang nakita ko sa monitor ng kapatid ko na ang huling nag laro ng CS ay si CHOY haller.. si edward yan malamang, kinabahan na talaga ako. at di nagtagal nangyare na nga ang kinakatakutan kong mangyare... DUMATING NGA SI EDWARD. amp. tawa talaga ako, pero gets gusto ko na talagang maghalumpasay sa floor at tumawa.. kaso magkagalit nga pala kami :l. edi yun continue lang ako, kachat ko si peter at si bernas at the same time katext ko si kurt :). haha. biglang nagring yung telepono ko, "mami is calling"... oh nooo!! nasa bahay na pala sila at hindi pa kami umuuwi! haha. (escapade na ito!) Pinilit ko si brother na umuwi na kaso it was too late.. nalinlang na siya sa battle realms.. nyek. edi hinintay ko nalang siya. tapos eto na! sa tabi ko pa talaga umupo eh! TAPOS! sabi niya : "ano ba yan di pa nagsign out"---- WAAAA!! nakakahiya!!! :(( hahaha. haay leche. kelan kaya kami magbabati? bahala na si batman. :l
~YES! hindi galit si mami! kasi naman eh, iniwan nila ako nagmabuting loob lang naman siya at hinatid niya ko. haha. sabi ni mother mukha ka daw mommy's boy... amp. hahaha. pero ok lang daw, atleast you had the guts daw to walk me and bring me to her. bakit di ka nagstay?! nakasmile na nga siya eh. pinakilala pa kita, kaso when i looked back papunta ka na sa kabilang side. haha. pero ok lang atleast she trusts the both of us now. but she told me don't go to serious stuffs or business muna..enjoy daw muna natin ang singlehood. and you know she's right. i still have a looooong journey ahead of me and i'm assuring you... i'm gonna spend it with you. now's just not the right time, but i also told her that i'm not letting you go. well it's a good thing that she knows, atleast the trust is still there... and the best thing YOU'VE BEEN ACCEPTED AS MY PROM DATE :)) (finally! haha.)
~So monday nanaman bukas. haii. president time again, sermon time again, ok lang ang homework eh, pero kasi ang hirap ng may tension sa loob ng classroom. KASI NAMAN EH! YUNG PRIDE KOOO!!! rawr. ayun, naghanap nanaman kami ng house. it's either the one in don antonio (para mas accessible sa seed) or sa mapayapa (i like this one better). malapit nang lumipad si Itay papuntang Bahrain. mamimiss ko kaya siya? 2 years din yun. haii. andami kong iniisip! katulad nalang ng aking project sa filipino na nagkukulang pa ng isang talata at hindi ko pa ito itinutuloy dahil nandito pa ako sa kompyuter. nyahaha. pero sana man lang perfect ako dun!
PINAGHIRAPAN KO YUN TSER MINERBA! maawa kaa. haha. may quiz nga pala sa Social sa miyerkules ngunit bakit ko nga ba prinoproblema yun? eh matagal pa yun? ika nga nila the early bird catches the worm~ at wala itong koneksyon. haha. nababaliw nako!! tulong!! kailangan ko ng hotfudge!!! =)) ay last na 'to.. kasi nga diba nagabsent ako! tapos! the following day may 2 agad na quiz isa sa Siyencia at isa sa Aritmetik. hindi ako nag-aral nang lubusan!! at so far so good naka 22/30 naman ako sa Siyencia, ang sa Aritmetik ay pinangangambahan ko pa. kinakabahan ako!! wag naman po sanang bagsak! di pa ako nagkakaron ng failing mark sa math!!! waaa. :)) ayun cge. pramis gagawin ko na ang pabula ko. babay. ü
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so after a long week of somber days, i'm finally A-okay. so what happened to me lately? oh let just put it this way... haiiii :"> (haha, labo). wait i'll just give you guys some refreshments...
~kuya tim visited us, haha. astig ung hair niya promise!! haha \m' 'm/. i'm missing the seniors narin!! haii :(
~well, bati na kami ni edward : haha. di promise okay na kami, asaran nga lang to the enth level minsan, pero i just realized that, that's just who he is. and well.. he's my friend so i just have to deal with him and his attitude :D
~i had a problem with him, well i admit it was my fault. it was just a little dilemma (wait! who am i kidding?! IT WAS A BIG DILEMMA that i tried to fit into a small box, because i was stupid!). argh. anyway... it was because of someone, tsss.. but it's all so clear to me now. you're all i need. shux :"> haha.
~dad's flying to bahrain in two weeks.
~something bad happened to my sister, that made me love her more. since i was ten i've always been mad at her. i feel like she is not worthy of being the eldest among all of us. but that's over now. i have proven that you learn through your mistakes but i feel so bad for my sister na yun pa ung mistake na kailangan niyang mapagdaanan. and now i always tell myself not to be like her, i know it hurts for her for me to think this way. BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW ATE THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I WILL STILL ACCEPT YOU W/ OPEN ARMS. i love you to death ate, i know i have not been the sister you've always wanted and i know i didn't give you the same love i gave to ate chic but you should know I REALLY LOVE YOU :).
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here comes the big one! :) .....he..is..the..one..
how? i don't know it just happened. lahat ng mga senyales na hinintay ko nang pagkatagal-tagal, ibinato sakin lahat nung isang araw at kahapon. alam na nating dalawa kung ano yung mga yun. well wala nga lang bulalakaw, ngunit sa tingin ko mas gumagana ang dasal kesa sa pangangarap sa isang bituin. ika ko nga "ika'y ipinagpala hindi swinerte". ibang kasiyahan ang nais kong ipagbunyi sa buong kalawakan, sa buong mundo. haha. iba ka talaga.
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haii. just not now. :(
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i'm so fucked-up w/ this person!! and i'm so fucked up being the president of this goddamn forsaken section!! sometimes the things you consider as jokes are not jokes to others, i'm not the only one who's affected here. YOU'RE ALL AFFECTED. great! just great! you guys have manage to set a breaking record!~ for being the most uncontrolable, irresponsible, and rude students ever!! my god! i've never encountered this much of a zoo-like place whenever i enter our classroom. for pete's sake have a life!!! i'm not referring to all of you guys, there are some who are very nice, they're are the ones w/ respect for others, especially teachers! IT'S NOT JUST BECAUSE TEACHER ___ IS EASY TO MANIPULATE YOU WILL TAKE HER FOR GRANTED! WELL CHOICE NIYO YAN EH, AYAW NIYO PALANG GRUMADUATE EH. SINONG TANGA NGAYON HA?? ang kapal niyo naman! ako pa ngayon ung walang ginagawa tas pag ginagawa ko na ung responsibilidad ko titingnan niyo ko na parang wala akong karapatan sumuway?! eh puta, ano palang gusto niyong gawin ko?! i'm not doing my job YOU say? fyi, i'm doing even more than what is expected from me. i'm not gonna be a boaster and tell you every bit of what i've been doing for you guys. but i'm just so freakin tired w/ YOUR side comments. YOU'RE my friend, one of my close friends even, but sometimes you really get into my nerves and i just wanna kill you right then and there! gahd!! tas tatawag-tawag ka to ask for homeworks?! MOTHERF$%$!!! i'm getting too much stress at home already, wag na kayong dumagdag pa! when will you guys grow up?!
haii, sana may magandang mangyari bukas. sorry for the harsh words guys, pero at this very moment i'm still aggrivating towards all of you. sorry sa mga nadadamay na di naman talaga dapat madamay. haii. just soo pissed off! well, sorry guys. for real.
haii, sana may magandang mangyari bukas. sorry for the harsh words guys, pero at this very moment i'm still aggrivating towards all of you. sorry sa mga nadadamay na di naman talaga dapat madamay. haii. just soo pissed off! well, sorry guys. for real.
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this an exerpt from as told by Ginger. i soo love this poem, read along and u'll really know how i feel.
She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.
-She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.
-She longed to be a bird.
That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of gr*ss
For planted they would stay.
-She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.
-Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone..
-The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.
-She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...
-And then she was gone
i'd rather be isolated from the world, than face the world itself. what's the use, if it has chosen to turn its back on me?
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE CHIC!! A.K.A. stepid nini :p
omg! i have so much kwento!!! haha. well i'll let you know the bad things first, para happy ending :)) ngek. haha. anyway highway..
omg! i have so much kwento!!! haha. well i'll let you know the bad things first, para happy ending :)) ngek. haha. anyway highway..1) INIRAPAN AKO NI RONANA AT NUNG SO CALLED KA-LOVE TEAM NIYA. AMP!!! (oh no! you didn't!!!) rawr!! lechengyawa yan, feel nyo naman sa sarili nyo mature na kayo kasi may paholding- holding hands pa kayo dyan at padate-date pag tapos na ung classes! ok ok! so i'm a LITTLE jealous, NO! WAIT! jealous is not the right word, but ugh!!! BASTA!! ang feeling niyong dalawa!! AT IKAW MISS GIRLY W/ UR THICK-FRAMED EYE GLASSES-- DON'T YOU DARE LOOK AT ME FROM HEAD-TOE AND THEN ROLL YOUR EYES AT ME!!! IF U WERE'NT WEARING YOUR GLASSES I SWEAR I'D POKE YOUR EYES TILL THEY BLEED (wahhahaha) ok ang morbid ko. pero kasi naman noh, as if naman papatol ako sa RONANANG YAN AT AAGAWIN KO SIYA SAYO?! HELLO!!?? I'M NOT THAT STUPID, AND DESPERATE!! AND BESIDES FRESHIES LANG KAYO LA AKONG BALAK MAKIPAG HALUBILO SA INYO! MEIGAHD!
2) PINAGTUTULUNGAN AKO NILA EDWARD, JARED, MIKE, WARREN and MIKKO!!!! mga leche!! naiiyak na talaga ako kanina :(( totoo naman ung sinasabi ko eh!! na nakachamba talaga ako sa quiz!! WELL COMMON SENSE, pero gets.. ung feel mong tama minsan mali ika nga ni t.aileen. sabi ba naman nila
ang yabang ko daw, di ko nalang daw sabihin na magaling kasi ako kaya ako naka 29/30, pa-humble effect pa daw ako!! aaahhhh!!!!:(( LECHE!!! tas may pahabol pa sila... MAMATAY NA DAW AKO?! AMPOCH!!!! mga walang kwenta!! tas inaasar nila ako!! ayoko naaaa :((
ang yabang ko daw, di ko nalang daw sabihin na magaling kasi ako kaya ako naka 29/30, pa-humble effect pa daw ako!! aaahhhh!!!!:(( LECHE!!! tas may pahabol pa sila... MAMATAY NA DAW AKO?! AMPOCH!!!! mga walang kwenta!! tas inaasar nila ako!! ayoko naaaa :((
GOOD THINGS NAMAN..
1) IT RAINED LIKE HELL MAN! haha. so funny! seeing all those students running, hahaha, basta i can't explain!
2) jesse visited the seed!! aww, i SOOOOO miss the former seniors! *ahem*ahem* haha.
3) un nga i got a 29/30 in the science quiz. :D (shatap edward!)
4) perfect score in math (shatap again edward!!) haha.
5) 18/20 in fil. :D
6) i heard my oh-so-adorable classmate sing :''> ( i hope you'll not read this!!! :S)
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i can't take this depression anymore.. please kill me now. i want to be in peace. heaven is the only place i can run to now, 'cause everyday of my life is a living hell! it's time for reality once again, i'm not a kid anymore. AND fairytales are for ignorant people only, those who live in fear, those who are afraid of the truth that lies beneath. and yes i have to accept the mere fact that i'm living in the real world now, and it's just so goddamn hard to accept. being a teenager sux big time!
- no i'm not having problems w/ my love life, infact he's the only reason for my happiness right now, besides the presence of my friends though. and having want to kill yourself for a stupid love problem is just so pathetic to hear. that's why i'll never cry over a boy who has failed to love me, be it weird and corny.. but i will accept my defeat. and little by little i'll be able to let go.
-it's not my grades also! but i really do cry over my grades. i'm sorry, but i'm very concious about my grades, i don't settle for an 89/100. it should always be on the line of 90.
haii, maybe i'm getting too pressured to attain the grades my parents want to see in my report card. maybe i'm just so pissed off with the environment i'm in right now. MAYBE I'M JUST SO FUCKED UP HAVING TO DO EVERYTHING EVEN THE THINGS THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HANDLING, AND STILL MY CRIES ARE NOT HEARD, AND I'M STILL UNNOTICED !!! maybe i just want 5MINS ALONE. maybe i just need more space. maybe you should've told me before that ponies don't fly, and that fairygodmother never knew me at all. maybe you should've always been there! 'cause maybe just MAYBE I NEED TO BE LOVED TOO.
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aww, that was so cute. (haay! mag OL ka nga!) haha. anyway, that was by far the longest conversation we had personally. we might have spent hours talking on the phone (and we talk about anything that's everything!!from the corniest things to the most serious questions... gush! i am so in love with this guy :">) ,but when it comes to having a private conversation w/ each other, i don't know why, but i really feel awkward. it's really ironic! i mean i've known him for quite some time now, but it feels like we've just known each other. just talk to me for crying out loud! (don't let me be the one to always approach you first!!! ugh!!!) i have so much to tell you. and i want you to know everything. well wait, maybe i'm not yet ready to tell you everything. haay, one step at a time :)
anyway, omg!! the gay... it's taking over me, translation: chuva : hahaha. argh!!! that's what you get if you spend to much time w/ camille and john nubla :)) hahaha. pero i love those two! they take my sadness away :) aww. haha. ayoko na kay ronana!! HAHA.
byes
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what a fuck-hell day!! argh!! the stress is killing me! i mean try being a mother ('cause mom's out of town, and dad.... errr, well let's just say he can't be both the mom and the dad, my oldest sister is somewhere there! i don't know! and my 2nd sister has an abnormal schedule--she's studying in UP now.) a student who's trying to keep up her straight-A grades, and the "oldest" sister of my two siblings!! ARGH!!!! mom!! come home nooooooooow! i'm just so pissed off! tapos teacher precious talked to me W/ KENRIC!! (motherf****r!!) kasi naman eh, commuter siya ako sinusundo ako ng fetcher hinihintay pa niya ko maka-uwi!! ok ok, it's sweet and all pero sheesh!!! iba nanaman ung naiisip ng administrators!!! haay! this is the 2nd time already!!! pati kay edward and jared, they're just one of my really good friends ok? don't put any malice! they're my friends, and i don't think it's such a good idea to talk about these stuffs behind our backs, it's really rude!! (whew!! INHALE! EXHALE!!!)hahaha. (special mention emery!!)
FOR THE LAST TIME! KENRIC AND I ARE NOT A COUPLE!!!!!!!!
and besides... i have my kurt mantes, i couldn't ask for more :)
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so it's official. i'm now a part of section B. i won as class president, aww. i can't believe it despite the fact that i want to transfer to section A, they still voted for me. well as much as i love section A, i will really try my best. and eventually i'll learn how to love this section as well. thanks guys!! :)
LINE UP OF OFFICERS:
president: ahem!ahem! (drumroll please?) haha. okay. AKO.:D
VP: CAMILLE SAN MIGUEL
SEC: NIKKI FERIA
TREAS:MIKE (dunno his last name hahaha) :)
and for section A, di ko kayo iiwan. PROMISE :) miss you guys!!
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argh!! i don't know why i'm feeling sooo doooown. haii, I WANT TO BE TRANSFERRED IN SECTION A!!! but teacher Cleo wants me in her class (aww shiyux), and besides it's really not that bad in section B, well ang kausap ko lang yung mga guys! haha. one of the boys eh!:)) promise! the only girl i can talk to there is Camille! medyo rin kay nikki pero hindi kami magka-jive minsan. Edward's the one i always talk to, kahit na worst enemy ko yun we have alot in common, that's why i love talking w/ that guy. haha. may kasalan nga pala ako dun!!
*if ever mabasa mo 'to SORRY TALAGA!!! next time promise icclear ko ung pagcommute thingy natin!! SORRY NAAA!!!
:( haha*
ayun, i have this seatmate from ateneo, his name's Mike. he's really cute!!! but nah! not my type. :| i like this guy from the first year though =)) RONN!!! (pronunciation: ronana hahaha). pero stick to one ako eh :) grabe, ano bang conversation ung kanina?? "braclete ko?!" =)) takte! sana man lang kinamusta nya muna ako diba. haha. soo cute :)). (and oh yeah! KIT HE'S THE ONE! :|) haha.
haiii, i really want to transfer. 'cause i still want to be with my friends. ang awkward kasi pag nasa B ako. and i don't think na makaka-catch up pako w/ my friends if i stay in sec.B, we have different schedules. ARGH!!! soooo confused!!
BAHALA NA NGA SI BATMAN :|
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errr... i feel like i'm gonna be sick.
ayun, i didn't go to school :)). haha, and then i had an argument w/ my mom awhile ago! UGH!! as usual nagtampo nanaman sya. eh nakakainis naman kasi eh, nakakatamad ung pinapagawa niya! and besides she's just curling her hair. ugh!! but yeah, i admit.. it was partially my fault. haay, bummer.
my younger brother's transferring to seed also, wow the whole family's here! :))
i'm not that excited to go to school, i heard i was transfered to section B :(.
anywho.. there's this cutie/hottie newbie in our school, ang tangkaad nya meehn! problem? he's only a freshie!!!
aww, shiyux :( hahaha. and yeah i think lilipat na kami ng house, dun na sa may fern village
or maybe not, basta the streets along that place yung after mag bf homes? i think it's mapayapa vill. tama ba?---
wait sinong kausap ko?? hahaah. err..
i just remebered, i didn't go to mass last sunday! :( i thought i was aiming to be more religous this year?? rawr! but i still pray everynight, but it's not the same. *remember to keep holy the sabbath day*.
^^6.6.06^^
THE OMEN, haha. nope, i didn't watch the movie, but i saw something(someone) even better...
(drumroll please?......)
MIKEE LEE!!!!!!!!! yahoo.X) haha. i saw him at mcdonalds katips,
i can't believe this guy that i consider as a nerd before is a celeb now.
haha. time really flies by very fast. to think it was only yesterday when i'd always see Mikee down by the creek beside the parking lot. haha. well, good for him!!
OMG, I miss my old school. the calachuchi area, the cafeteria!!! the vanity pics during break periods! haha.
i miss my banaag club, my friends (sanib!!).
haiiii....
but it's time to move on.
all of these are a part of my magical past now.
and of course the ones i left behind will always remain in my heart.
i'm glad that my relationships with my old friends are still the same.
i'll keep every memory.
i'll keep my: Feb.8'03, Jan.23 and 29 '04, June 10'96 (first day of classes nung gr.1 ako :)).
i'll keep everything even the horrible things i went thru.
i'll always keep in mind that this is where everything started.--my happiness and my sorrows.
well, i'm happy now. i am contented. i mean i'm really happy!! no kidding.
i love my life now and i love my life before.
~peace out~ ;P
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I WRITE SINS NOT TRAGEDIES
Oh, well imagine
As I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor
And I can't help but to hear
No, I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words
"What a beautiful wedding
What a beautiful wedding,"
says a bridesmaid to a waiter
"And, yes, but what a shame
What a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore."
I chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of
Oh, well in fact
Well I'll look at it this way
I mean, technically, our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast
So pour the champagne
Oh, well in fact
Well I'll look at it this way
I mean, technically, our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast
So pour the champagne, pour the champagne
I chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationallity
Again
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
Again
penguin love
so ayan, new blog nanaman, haha. di na nakontento sa isa eh! err... hmm.. i don't know what to put here. ay! i made a new song!! :)
HE LOVES ME (not)
i knew it from the start
the moment i saw you
you already had
my heart
never thought things
would be this way
the wonders of your smile
that makes me want to live
another day
so what am i doin' now?
if i want you by my side,
why can't i say the things
i want to say?
here i am now
right in front of you
don't know what to do
i need you
CHORUS:
if i told you everything i inside,
will you hold me or will you run and hide?
if i confess all the things that i hide,
will you be mine forever?
if i told you...
wont let another minute pass me by
somehow i've got to try
it's now or never
so here i am walking up to him
and my heart is trembling.
here i am now
right in front of you
i just wanna tell you
i need you.
CHORUS
(i ove you)
you give a thoughtful smile...
as i watch you
walk away.
:(
penguin love
